I'll say it again and probably a thousand more times. Being a mother is pretty much the hardest thing I've ever done. Yes, it's the most rewarding thing. But damn, it's hard. And I feel like a lot of women shy away from admitting this for fear of being shunned or seen as inadequate. But I have no problem shouting it from the roof tops. Having a baby is hard! So very hard. Yes- it's also amazing and so rewarding (but we hear about those things all the time). And it's like duh, baby smiles and touches are the best.
I think it's the combination of lack of sleep and daily worry/guilt that makes it so rough. I never knew I could worry about some many trivial things. Is he sleeping enough? Is he eating enough? Did he spend enough time on his tummy? How the hell am I going to get him to stop sleeping in his swing? Is this normal crying or does he have a milk allergy? Should I take him to Target during his nap time or awake time? I mean the list goes on and on. Maybe other mothers don't have as many worries as I do. Or maybe that just don't voice them like I am. Or maybe it's my crazy perfectionist personality. Who knows?!
I'm trying to learn to let go and just be. But it's so dang hard. I like having a schedule and knowing the answers. But I'm learning that with a baby the only constant is change. For example, my little man was doing 6-7 hours stretches for the past month. Out of nowhere this week he has decided to wake up every 3 hours. It's exhausting and I don't really have the solution. But I think that's just how babies are- always keeping ya on your toes!
So fellow mamas, let's talk sleep! Are you getting any? How did you get your baby to sleep? Any suggestions on moving this guy out of his swing?!